Have fun or else!

Brunch! Movies! Party! Shopping! Dinner! More parties! Another brunch! Book club! Gotta be in it to win it! Or somthing. (Insert eye roll here). The point is I (and the rest of the world) seem to dedicate an inordinate amount of time to making absolutely sure we have fun when we're not working! (Probably because we spend far too much time at work). Which sometimes turns fun into...work. It's 4:30pm on a Saturday, I haven't done a damn thing and I'm ecstatic! But I also feel, somewhat...guilty? Because when I'm not doing something it feels...odd. From August of last year through January of this year my social calendar resembled the late Queen of England (seeing as I am a princess maybe I shouldn't complain but I'm going to do so anyway); trips, business meetings, parties, birthdays, Broadway shows (work was in there somewhere I suppose). I feel like I'm running a goddamn marathon (which is strictly against my policy) with no end in sight. Now, this is not to say that I'm not having fun. I am. Truly (very little scarcasam here but not zero). I love spending time with my family; I'm extremely fortunate to have them. And a plethora of friends to boot. It's incredible and amazing for someone who tends to feel like an afterthough in other people's lives. The thing is, I'm an ambivert, which means, whatever I'm doing, I want to be doing the opposite thing. Home without plans? How come nobody likes me? Meeting up at a club for drinks? Awesome! When are we leaving? Also, fun is expensive! Why in the hell does a simple dinner cost $96 dollars? Ice skating? $110. Not including food. A day at the mall? Get ready to drop $30 on food and $130 on stuff you didn't need. Ugh! But we all do it. We dedicate ourselves faithfully to having fun on the weekends. To spending that time off of the hampster wheel proving that we have actual lives. When sometimes all it feels like we're doing is recharging long enough to hop back on said hampster wheel to Go! Go! Go! Stop! Stop! Stop! Why are we going at such an insane pace? Oh yeah, because if we don't we might miss something, and we can't have that! "On an island that I own, tan and rested and ALONE..." Wise words from Disney (Eugene from Tangled). All I want is five minutes of QUIET! And also to make sure my time spent away from work is meaningful and fun! Fun! Fun! Fun! Fun!